What’s the worst that could happen ?!

Just turning 21 and this so-called adult life is already exhausting. To be more specific, it is mundane, waking up every day not knowing what life is going to throw at you! Attending classes just to not fall short for attendance criteria and what not!
Juggling between almost finished under graduation and looking out “aimlessly” into future prospectives. This is very tiringly, sick and I feel every minute of the day is running as slow as possible.

To vent my anger I found a soul who always believes in doing what she loves. Ever since middle school she silently watches me trip and fall, throws her hands to lift me up and then tell me where I went wrong. Almost a decade and she is been patiently doing her job just the same.

After I finished venting, she, very calmly, asked me — “so, what's the worst that could happen? “
I was ridiculed! It is not new of her to throw tantrums at me like this but I certainly didn’t see it coming when I almost broke and again she repeated- So what’s the worst that could happen?
This put me a lot of thinking. I am 21 and can comfortably say “yet another engineering graduate” not knowing what to do next. In haste and futile attempts I have tried everything — Getting my grades stable, Giving GRE, TOEFL, preparing for aptitude and registering in freshersworld.com to naukari.com, but none of this satisfied me, gave me that comfort. I am still the same — “confused athma”.

What do I love? Did I really study all these years to end up in a 9–5 job? What happened to the little girl that once said,” I want to be as adventurous as possible when I grow up? Does what others would tag me years from now is all that matters to me at this point?
ALL of this haunted me for days together.

It is nothing new and every Tom and Harry has crossed this phase in his or her life. No matter what happens or how sidetracked your life has put you too and how down you feel every single day, ask this one question to yourself- What’s the worst that could happen?”

‘If the worst is not death then you got nothing to worry about”- silently roaded the voice note and suddenly it all made sense. If you cannot figure out immediately what you like or where your heart would want you to go- breath and do nothing ! for there are better mornings to come and the sun will surely shine bright!

Originally published at http://fragilefingers.wordpress.com on November 6, 2016.